He Can Be Serious (Part 10)

This has gone too far… Can I fix it? Of course I can I’m Vaughn. They all love me, I can have them all, I can handle them all. DaVaughn sat in his living room giving himself a major pep talk. Austin is ignoring his calls, Cameron just learned that he wanted to marry Austin, Shyra is… Shyra is young, dumb and gullible, yep she’s the one I’ll reign in first. He picked up the phone and it began to ring in his hand. Dude do you know that she knows? Do you know that they know? My sisters know!!!!! They know everything and I mean E-VER-Y-THING. And you were going to ask HER to marry you!?!? You no good bastard. I can’t believe you’re doing this to our family. How dare you, she cried out for an answer. Shy baby please listen to me, we can work it out. You and I can raise our child together. You can move in with me, have the baby here. My parents will be able to help you uruhmmm I mean us with the baby. You can be my number one Shy baby and we won’t have to hide us anymore , you know? First of all this is Raegan not Shyra and thought you said you wanted me not her. Raegan didnt give him a chance to answer, she just hung up. 

Nori dropped down on the couch and dropped his cell beside him. He reached for the remote and turned the tv on. It’s best that I just lay low and let them all come back to me, he thought to himself. Then a thought came to him, maybe I should actually try being faithful to one woman. He chuckled at what he thought was simply unnatural. He looked around his living room searching for…. Nothing. 

Both boys parent’s helped to furnish their place. They lived in a 3 bedroom loft, completey decked out with all the essentials of a bachelor’s pad. 64 Smart tv, several game consuls and surround sound system filled there blacked out living room area. Blacked out with leather couch, and two gamer recliners, tungsten metal coffee and end tables and black and white photos of all of their favorite movies. Vaughn laughed as he remembered how he and Nori picked out the movie theme to their apartment because I figured it would intrigue females they brought over.

 Damn, I have to call him. We’re family before all of this. He dialed Nori’s number ready to be sent straight to voicemail knowing his cousin is really non-confrontational, but he was wrong. What, the word stabbed through the phone. Damn brah, can we talk? We are better than this, I mean who are we without each other? DaVaughn was actually being sincere. He loved his cousin, Nori was always there  for him, when his parents got divorced, when he found out about he had a sister his age, when he almost slept with his sister because he didn’t know who she was, Vaughn snapped out of it. I need you brah, please you’re all I got! I’m not asking you to forgive me for all the crap I said, I just need my brother and best friend right now. I swear cuzzo I really want to punch you in your mouth, Nori said with a slight grin on his face. Look we need to talk but not at the house, meet me at the Cigar Bar. DaVaughn agreed to the meeting spot. 


He can’t be serious (Part 9)

Nori walked in the house to see his friend… his cousin… his blood on the couch with his twin’s mother. Nori looked at the two of them cuddled up on the couch and couldn’t hold his tongue.  Man I should punch you in your face. You have that girl over there sobbing, hurting and destroyed and you’re here with her, without a care in the world. You are straight dead dog wrong man.  DaVaughn stood as his cousin charged in his direction. He assumed it was about to be a fight but instead  Nori stormed through the hall way grabbed some stuff, his car keys and began to leave.

These two have known one another since as far as they could remember.  DaVaughn’s mom and Nori’s dad are twins. They have been as close as their parents, more like brothers than first cousins. They’ve never lived more than 10 blocks apart. They’ve attended school together since pre school.  They are only 7 weeks apart. Two boys born and raised in the suburb of Dunwoody,  Ga. Both parents are psychologists who graduated from Clark. However,  they are far from the same. Nori was raised solely by his dad because his mom left weeks after he was born and never returned.  Nori’s father instilled in him how to be a man and how to treat a woman, maybe because of the way Nori’s mom left he wanted to assure that his son never had to suffer that kind of pain again. Nori, a caramelized mocha complexed gentleman,  very quiet and peaceful. He had a stifling kind of character yet he lived in the shadow of his cousin DaVaughn.  DaVaughn who was raised by both parents, but saw his father play around on his mother and his mom just kind of making excuses for it. Oh Vaughn,  your dad loves us he’s just doing what men are supposed to do.
Nori, Vaughn called with a sinister smile on his face. You will never be me so you will never understand.  And I will never want to understand either Nori snapped! I’m moving dude. You can have this spot to yourself you and all your hoes. You know it’s stuff out here that you can’t get rid of, right? DaVaughn just continued to laugh at his cousin without a care in the world. But this time Nori refused to be cut down by his cousin brother.

Cameron did you know that your loving baby’s daddy planned on proposing to Austin at graduation? Did you know he’s sleeping with her roommate’s sisters?  Yep, that’s sisters  with an S because it’s two of them! Oh and by the way your twin’s are about to have  a sibling or siblings  because clearly this dude is all about  plural and Shyra is 7 weeks pregnant and refuses to abort her child.

The light in DaVaughn’s eyes faded as the blaze in Cameron’s burned like a growing brush fire. Wow that’s what your doing cuz, we’re family and your snitching? I should. What? What are you going to do or think you’re going to do, because today will be the last that you chew on your own if you try it, Nori said beyond heated. Today I’m done being your sidekick, alibi, and or fall guy. We’re not friends my dude we’re not even family. Nori stood in  the middle of their bachelor’s pad while his cousin and the mother of his twin girls Darie  and Camie headed for the door. Cameron turned before exiting the apartment and softly whispered with a broken heart you reap what you sow.

Dear Ex of mine

I just wanted to simply take the time out to thank you for all that you have done for me. Yes you read right, thank you! We went through a lot and though it did not last what we had truly taught me some things. There were lessons and blessing in our time spent and I just wanted to give you the thanks that you deserved… So here goes.

First I would like to thank you for showing me what real love is. Meaning it is truly something unconditional with no limitations and most important no judgement. When a person is truly in love they will do what it takes to make time for the one that they love, no matter how busy they are or what they have going on in their lives.

So thanks for NOT doing any of this! You wanted me to be with you without you being with me, which gave me so much time to analyze what we didn’t have. You were selfish, judgmental and arrogant. And to be honest you showed me your true colors from day one. It was my own foolishness that made me think that I had some special quality that could magically change your contrast.

Also, thank you for experimenting with my heart as if I was some sort of emotional testing lab. We mixed our dangerous chemistry in a beaker knowing that the only possible result… A volatile explosion of words and actions erupting and causing anguish to the both of us.

Also thanks so much for exposing my flaws and weaknesses because I honestly did not or at least refused to see them in myself. Yep I admit that my mouth is smart and yet I can be an emotional wreck. I am spoiled and yet I can’t stand asking someone to do something for me! So because of your amazing observations I’ve made some changes. I’ve learned that sometimes it is a necessity that I SHUT UP and control my emotions not allow them to control me. I’m still spoiled but I hey I don’t like sharing! I realize that as a woman must learn to sit down and allow a man to stand as such. But what I did figure out is that if a man is my man if I NEED something I don’t have to ask because my man knows.

Thanks for breaking me down to my break pads so that I could be rebuilt and renewed. Now I am better, stronger, wiser and most of all loved. See I knew that even though you told me that what I wanted wasn’t realistic I would find it if I refuse to give up. If I refused to accept less than what I knew that I deserved. So thank you for redirecting my focus to what I really wanted. Thanks for everything!

Your Ex

They Don’t Miss A Good Thing Til It’s Gone…. Really?

We have all had our heart broken a time or two or seventeen right? So I’m sure someone has told you “they don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone”. But my question to that is why? Why must I be gone to be appreciated? Why does it take to break me down to see the good in me? Why is it when I move on and have given all my love to someone else you thirst so much for me? Well I am here to break it down so that it can forever and always be broke.

I going to have to take you on a journey from a broken heart to a mended heart for some ground work. There was once a good guy, trying to be great. But along the way he made some serious mistakes. And Instead of allowing those mistakes to make him he choose to allow them to grow him. While making these mistakes he met a young lady who instead of growing with him she choose to attempt to stunt his growth because of his mistakes. So after years of fighting against one another he couldn’t take anymore and he left. With his broken heart shattered like glass in his hands he walked away and to begin to heal.
Now he is growing into a great man and and his heart is mending and he’s ready to place his fragile heart in the hands of another woman.

We all knows the next few steps. If you are honest… Let me repeat IF YOU ARE HONEST… You don’t just tell what they did you also tell what you did. You express that you are serious about wanting to find love and you have grown from the mistakes you’ve made. Then that person makes the choice to attempt to grow with you and sooner or later you two are a couple.

Here’s where it gets interesting… Somehow some way that ex that choose not to forgive, that choose not to see the love in your heart, that choose not to be ready to be ready for what you wanted finds out that you’re trying love again. So you get a call, a text, or maybe even a inbox on Facebook like “Hey… Ummm I haven’t heard from you in a while and just wanted to say hello” (Look at my face ­čśĆ).

We all know what that means they know your happy. They know someone is getting at the least what you used to give them if not more. There is a girl cooking for you, adoring you, allowing you to be that great man that you wanted to be. There is a guy that is giving you all of the attention that you desire, who is busy making moves to be great but NEVER too busy for you. Somebody they know saw you holding hands with your new love and you had the nerve to look happy! Who do you think you are.

Now it hits them… That thing… That imaginary thing… That silly thing… That thing that they never told you they wanted and/or needed was in you all along. But wait…. You’re giving it to someone else. Now they are ready to have you all to themselves. They don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone.

They are reaching out to you more and more. They tell you look I know I hurt you. I know I said that I couldn’t forgive you. I know I said I wasn’t ready but I just didn’t know. And I wish that I knew then what I know now. They don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone.

They want you to understand that in real life it wasn’t you it was them. They have been going through it since you left. In their hearts they know that don’t NOBODY do it like you. They don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone.

Most people as I said before are sitting there thinking WHY. Well let me tell you why. They’re selfish, arrogant and completely full of themselves. They don’t want you, they simply don’t want someone else to have you. To them they are thinking in their minds I made him the man he is. I taught her how to love. They never did that with me. So now that they are on the outside holding the hand of misery and they want you to come and join the pity party. So go ahead and be the fool and go back if you want you. And you will see they never missed the good thing that was gone the simply wanted to prove you were never good from the begin!

We Are Simply Related

You know how the old saying goes, something like… blood is thicker than water. So please explain to me how that same blood that bonds us stops a man from being a father to his daughter.

Is that thin water the reason that my tears are invisible? And why is it when it’s my turn to talk my message is so undeliverable?

I understand you were and are the best you that you know how to be. But how dare you get upset when all that I’m doing is being me.

You hurt me more than you will ever know and you are my mother… Father… Sister… Brother… Yet you fail to understand that titles won’t ever make us closer to one another.

And yes I love and I forgive you but I choose to stay away. Not because I’m holding on but because you really haven’t changed and things are always your way or no way.

As a child I had no choice but to take it, to live the way we lived. But as a woman I have the option to decide to what and to whom the energy that I give.

Family doesn’t do something for you and then have to tell everyone they did it. Family doesn’t beg you to tell your deepest darkest secret then run with it and expose it.

Drama is always the dish of the day no matter the time or the place. Talking about me behind my back and jumping all up in my face.

Then you have the audacity to get mad when I defend myself. Do you think I’m going to continue to allow you to deplete my mental and emotional wealth?

Nope not at all and not even with a heavy heart. I have friends bound to me by love that have fulfilled the family part.

So while you think that blood makes of us family and I just have to accept and take it. In my mind all that blood does is simply make us related.

How Can They Tell You?

In today’s world most people seem to be gaining all of their knowledge from Facebook and Instagram. Seriously, from how to dress to how to become a man’s wife. Whatever happening to living and learning? But instead of stepping out and attempting to do things on their people would rather google it. This is maddening!

Honestly who are they anyway? What are their credentials? What makes them an expert? Think about it… The girl that’s talking about “this is how you keep your man happy” has either NEVER been in a relationship that last more than three months, has six kids by seven different dudes or actually not even into men.

The guy that’s talking about “all I do is get money” can only communicate through social media because he’s stealing his neighbors wifi seeing that his cell actually been off for the last six months, is three years behind in child support but has four pair of true religion jeans and some how is always the first in line when the new J’s come out and lives with his parents but tells the ladies he has “roommates”.

But yet you hang on their every word like their some sort of life coach or Guru. Stop it! You are one of a kind, you are the exception to the rule. They can’t tell you how to live your life unless you let them. Have they been through life exactly how you have? Have they been hurt like you have or struggled in anyway like you have? So who in the HELL are they to tell you how to love, how to live, how to learn? It’s not that serous people it’s just entrainment.

He Can’t be Serious (Part 8)

Carrie walked Nori to the door. Listen I understand that you guys don’t want to deal with DaVaughn but I still want to be a part of your lives. You ladies are so it I mean you are everything. Me or us, Carrie questioned chasing after something that she had no idea wasn’t there. Nori knew that Carrie was feeling him but he fell hard for Austin the first night they was her at the club working. Of course I mean all of you he said trying to dodge the question. Carrie quickly gathered herself realizing that he wasn’t at all interested. Oh ummm, do you think that you or Toni can take me home? When I made Vaughn leave I wasn’t really thinking about getting home. Yeah sure let me get my keys.

Carrie and Nori hopped into her drop top Chevy Camero and headed towards the school. The guys still lived close to campus, part of the reason being that DaVaughn liked having close access to the incoming freshman. So Nori how long have you been into Aussie? Yeah that’s right, I know and yes I still have a crush on you despite of! Nori was floored. He sat there with his mouth wide not having any idea what to say. Sooo… Are you going to answer me or nah? I know that what you wanted to do today was come in and snitch on your best friend, your roommate and cousin, but we kind of foiled that by putting her out of your reach. That’s some sucka type if I’ve never seen it before. And then you have the nerve to be calling that girl telling her all of his business like a creep? Wow I’m so not into you because I like men, not cowards like you. You better be glad I didn’t blow up your spot at the house, you better be glad because you know we will jump you, you better be glad that I don’t pull the hell over right now and put  your dumb ass out my car! Carrie was hot and she wanted him to know that she knew. Okay okay okay dang Carrie I’m sorry. I just wanted to help, seriously! And yes I love Austin… I mean love like in LOVE but I know that he’s my cousin so I could never. I just wanted to make things right for her. I want her to be happy and though I know it will never be with me I’m sure it will never be with Vaughn either, you feel me? Yeah, Carrie allowed the word to slip through her lips and from that point they rode in silence.

Nori knows for sure that he could never be what he wants to be to Austin. All he has is the memory of their first encounter. He and DaVaughn was going to meet some of their homeboys at the stripe club and hang out. They walked in and tried to find their friend in the cool chaos. As they walked around searching Nori caught a glance of a girl, a beauty walking through the club. He gravitated towards her as though something had take over his feet. He reached out to her but couldn’t speak. Umm hello sir she said with a smile. Hey hello hi, you are absolutely stunningly, breathtaking! Damn I can’t even speak. Would you like a dance or are you just going to hold my hand like we’re going steady. Yeah a dance, that would be great. I want a private one. That will be $300. Damn, well I guess right here is fine. And for the next hour he ended up paying her $200+. After dancing for Nori she went to the dressing room, showered and headed out. Nori, DaVaughn and their friends were in the parking lot. Nori said, goodnight Emotions, which was her stage name, and just that quick DaVaughn was all over her. After he approached her Nori knew that he had no chance.

Carrie pulled up to the boys apartment building. Well, thanks for the ride and really thanks for not putting me out there. I just want her to be treated well and as much dirt as I see Vaughn do I know that he’s not nowhere near good enough for her. And please let me say that I think you’re amazing and I wouldn’t be deserving of you or Aussie. You ladies are real women and I’m just blessed to have you all as friends you know. No problem Nori and I appreciate your apology. We are still cool and you are always welcome to come kick it or whatever. Thanks for seeing us as women and thanks for having my girl’s back. Nori got out the car and Carrie took off and headed home. Damn, she thought to herself. This mess is going to get a lot worst before it gets better.