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You Can’t be Serious (Chapter 15)

So he woke up with her beautiful face buried in  his chest. It took everything in him not to make love to this woman, his one true love, his happily ever after. But, he didn’t want to be used to get over the hurt and damage she just suffered. She snored softly and he painted kisses on her forehead as she slept. She whined and whimpered as if she may have been reliving the mornings festivities, and he pulled her in closer, just enough to allow her to feel him, but not to wake her. Soft 90’s R&B played in the background and at that moment he knew he was in the right place. He smiled, which he had not done in a very long time and he just knew.

What are you smiling for, Austin’s sleepy voice broke his train of thought. This just feels good. Yeah, I know right, I just know, she agreed. His eyes bucked, and he attempted to gather himself. She giggled, yeah that was so smooth Ravel! What do you know, he went straight in, no need to play games, he sat up and she made the necessary adjustments to look him in his eyes. I know that I’ve loved you since I couldn’t stand you, I know that I’ve compared every man that I’ve ever been with to you, even the one I almost married, and they never could compare. The crazy thing, she went on, is that I didn’t even know what I was comparing them to until today. Guys would tell me I was too clingy, or needy, or spoiled, or my mouth is too fly, and I’m too independent, and/or I was too quick to be like yeah I’m done with you. But today, I realized, you set the bar babe. Even at the age of 14 these grown men can’t compare. I do love you back, I am in love with you back, I just didn’t know it until today. She moved closer and the charge of their energy sparkled like diamonds in the rough. His eyes were closed but tears seeped out of the creases. Austin, you don’t have to say that if you don’t mean it, he choked out. She kissed his tears but I do, I mean it with my entire all. The right side of his lip curled up into a smile, he shook his head and pulled her to him. No sex until we are married Angel, okay? And without hesitation, she said okay.

A few hours later the two woke and went downstairs to be apart of the rest of the world. Ladies, Caesar said entering the living room area where the Carrie and Toni watched television. They both looked down at he and Austin’s fingers intertwined with one another’s. He paid them no mind, now like I was saying a few hours again, he continued on, hair, nails, make up, shoes, I know y’all got major work that y’all want done, so what’s the move. Toni took the bait, I do need to hit the mall for shoes and to find a bomb lippie! Oh and I think I’m going to take my dress back and get something else, plus I have to go get my sisters from the airport. Carrie’s eyes widen, they’re coming, well where are they gonna stay, she said with disgust in her tone. All of this mess is because of them two heffas, they ain’t… They can stay right here, Austin cut her right off. They are family and it is our job to make sure they become great women. Yeah okay, Carrie stated oozing sarcasm, until one or both of them are all up on your, your, your him. Damn, you’re just going to talk about my sisters like I’m not standing right here, Toni blazed out. They are all of our sisters, we have to sit them down and talk to them. It is our job to help Toni raise the into women. They have been through a lot, let’s try to do our best to keep them from making the dumb ass mistakes we made. Now am I going to let them have it? Abso-freaking-lutely! But we are three women, that have overcome some crazy issues and obstacles to be about to walk that stage and get those diplomas. They need to see us do that, graduate from college and walk into the world as successful black women. I’ve forgiven them and I love them and it’s all because I realized that I love him. Toni and Carrie snapped their laser focused eyes from Caesar to Austin, but she did not falter.

I know it may sounds crazy, but I’m seeing things so clear now, you two could only imagine. Caesar gently tightened the grip on her hand and smiled. So ladies, are you ready to roll, because I know this is going to be a long day and then only one day of rest until the big day. As they rode in the car to the mall a silent peace fail over the group. When they pulled up to the mall Austin and Toni decided to go shoe shopping. Well ladies, Caesar sighed, I am going to leave that adventure up to you. He went to go the other way, ummm new brother, I think I will go with you if you don’t mind. Sure, actually I would enjoy some one on one time with my new found family. Ravel do not go off spoiling her, okay, Austin shot a fake mean face at him and she and Toni disappeared out of sight. So, what do you want, Carrie said straight-faced, in momma bear mode? Like, you come down here and for what? She told you what was going on and you came down here to play captain save’em, you needed somewhere to stay, you running from something or what? He was taken aback, but so smooth with his response. Listen Carrie, I am not broke by any standards, I own several poetry cafe’s across the U.S. and a few in the Virgin Islands, before then I was a marketing consultant and I still do some marketing and advertisement independently. At that moment he turned to her with a kind of smug look on his face and said Google me and kept walking. She stopped dead in her tracks, but he kept going. Carrie doubled timed it to catch back up him. She fell into step with Caesar, so why does she call you Charles Ravel? Because that is my name, Caesar is the name I gave to myself, I decided to reinvent myself  because of some things I did growing up. But whether I am Caesar or Charles Ravel, I love her, I have loved her since I was 14 and I don’t care who she is with or what she is going through I will always love her. Though I plan on being the last one she is ever with. So how do you plan on doing that, he looked at the mother cub roommate and said, like this. She followed his eyes as they stopped in front of Bvlgari. Can you help me pick out her ring?

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He Can’t Be Serious (Chapter 14)

The ladies and their knight in shining armor sat at the table eating in silence. IT had just went down and no matter how hard they tried to ignore it a million unanswered questions hung in the air, lingering like fog on a rainy fall evening. However, the only sounds that could be heard in the lady cave was the sipping of drinks, forks clinking on plates and breathes in between swallows. Austin attempted to secretly glance up at Ceasar, but her plan was foiled because when she looked up he was blatantly gazing at her. She ducked her head quickly and he let out a tiny snorting giggle. Okay okay okay, Toni blurted out with inpatients. Yo my main man Caesar, my homeboy, my new found brother ummmmmm, do you love her? Of course, he said smoothly with no hint of hesitation. Nah man, I mean are you in love with her. I mean of course you love her you guys have been friends forever. He slowly sipped his orange juice, dropped his fork in his plate, grabbed his napkin, suavely wiped his mouth and stated matteroffactly, oh I knew exactly what you meant. Austin’s head jerked up and her beautiful eyes were as wide as a dear caught in headlights. Tears gathered at the tips of her eyelids. I’m sorry, what now, Austin inquired. Caesar made a quick motion to get up from the table and all the girls jumped. He was visibly tickled. What’s the problem ladies I’m simply clearing dishes, everyone is done right? All three of the sister mates spoke at once, oh yeah, umm here, their voices bumped together. 

So what’s on the agenda today ladies, I know graduation day is in two days so y’all need to get hair, nail, toes etc done? Oh yeah so we are just gonna abandon the fact that you’re in love with Aussie, momma bear, aka Carrie, stated with an inquisitive tone. OMG let it go, Austin rose from the table. Her reddish brown skin tanning to show the spot where her ex had just assaulted her. She was visibly upset, tears softly flowing down her face, her hands shaking and her lip quivering. She turned and walked towards the stairwell. I’m just going to lay down, she called back as she forced herself to take the stairs one by one.

He loves me, like what in the hell, she thought to herself. Austin flopped down across her bed. Why had he never told me before? I’m so confused. Austin reached for her cell phone and returned to her 90’s RnB playlist. She loved music, it always took her to her peaceful place. She closed her eyes and thought back to when she and Caesar were kids. They lived on the same street only a few houses apart and honestly they despised one another when they first met. She giggled as she reminiscing about  their first encounter. 

Hey girl, yo hey girl. The chocolate young man zoomed past Austin as she opened the front door to her place of residence. She was 13 and her family had moved yet again. Austin’s mom, Regina, never stayed one place for too long, but always in close vicinity of the same neighborhood. She stepped out on the front stoop to see who he was talking to. As if he was reading her mind, I’m talking to you girl. Yeah you standing on the porch. Austin pointed to herself and began to curse him out like a grown woman. She dropped every F bomb, called him every name except a child of God, and threw her bowl of cereal that she was having for dinner at him as he blazed past her on his mountain bike. She looked at his face, he was a cutie pie, his skin was like smoothe milk chocolate, he had a thick afro, perfectly shaped and everything, long athletic legs, making the statement he played some sort of sport, and the most perfect set of full lips she had ever een. After a few more laps he stopped in front of her fence where the rest of the neighborhood kids had begun to gather to meet the new kids. Why y’all sitting around here at her feet like she’s somebody, bye girl as he rode off? 

She was yanked out of her daze by a knock at her door. She sat up on her, come in, she hummed through the door. Her childhood bestie slightly cracked her door just enough  to peek his head through. Can we talk angel face? He still had the perfectly milky skin, full lips but he wasn’t a cutie pie anymore. He was now simply just fine. Yes Ravel, she blushed as she spoke his name, knowing only she called him by his middle name. It slipped from her lips so sweet and gentle that you could see it land on his heart. Listen lady, I didn’t mean to embarrass you, but you know me and if I’m asked I’m answering… truthfully he stressed the word. When I called you that day it was because I decided that in that moment I wasn’t living by my own standards. I was with a woman for 3 years, living a lie. I couldn’t love her as she needed and deserved to be loved, because I’ve loved you since I was 14 years old. I called you to confess and to come and get what’s mine. Her brows rose and her breath hitched. His, what the! Ravel. No, he cut her off, I need to say this, I’m not expecting anything from you. He lowered his head and continued on. But you were going through it and I heard it in your tone. I knew then that I had to tell you face to face. I needed to look into those big beautiful eyes and tell you that I love you. He inched closer to her, I love you Austin and even if you don’t love me it won’t stop me from falling in love with you more and more each second. You are my perfect 10, the song my heart dances to, you are. Austin kissed him, a light sparked in her heart, her body, her soul. Austin, he pulled away from her kiss, what does this mean? His hands were shaking as he caressed the small of her back. Don’t over think this Ravel, she stated breathlessly. She needed to feel him on her, in her, over her. She leaned in seductively, if you love me make love to me. Take me, please, if you love me make love to me she attempted to persuade him. Ceasar quickly wrapped her in his arms,  attempting to shield her from her own pain. He covered her bruised cheek in healing kisses. Not like this. 

He Can’t Be Serious (Chapter 13)

Are you out of your entire damn mind, Nori looked at his cousin with rage in his eyes. The two stood eye to eye, toe to toe, for what seemed like an eternity, but it was really only seconds. Just time enough for Ceasar to take four or five silently calculated steps, moved Austin behind him and struck  with the force of 100 men. He punched Vaughn so hard that it echoed throughout the girls condo. He landed another punch to his ribs that folded Vaughn like an old flip phone. Fight me, hit me, slap me, you punk ass boy! You’re  no man he said as he slammed Vaughn out of the house. Don’t you ever in your life, he punched Vaughn so hard that he fell towards him as the punch landed square in the jaw of his target of fiery!

Charles, baby please no! Austin stood in the walkway as the two men clambered to their feet in the parking lot. No, I’m okay, I promise. Caesar heard the voice of his angel on earth and it broke him out of his violent trance just as he headed towards Vaughn. Aussie, he said with a low throaty groan. He looked toward the sound of her voice. Are you okay? He saw the tears rolling down her face and stalked towards her with a look in his eyes that she had never seen before. Are you okay, let me see your face. He softly reached for her, brushing his thumb over her bruised cheek. I’m fine, I just want to fight, but I’m too close to my goals. The two of them stood there gazing into one another’s eyes as if nothing and no one existed. Austin, you are so amazing, so strong angel, so everything. Austin saw his lips moving and with every word her heart pounded in her ears so loud that she couldn’t hear him.

Nori, Toni and Carrie stood in the walkway separating their condo from their neighbors and everyone felt what was in the air. Nori walked towards the parking lot, where his cousin was leaning against his car. Look at this broad, all cuddled with this thug! Is that what you like, corny thugs, he yelled in the direction of the two caught in one another’s gaze. Man open the door so I can get my stuff out of your damn car. I can’t believe you put your hands on her. I told your dumb ass we should not have come over here. You’re not about that life! You better be glad we didn’t jump you! I should punch you in the, Nori trailed off as he grabbed his keys and cell phone charger from the passenger side door. I’ll call a taxi, Nori stormed away. He had returned to their apartment after his blow out with Vaughn a few days after. He figured since they were family they needed to talk it out. Vaughn man I really can’t even believe you. Come on man, we could… Oh hell naw, Nori cut Vaughn off. I’m done fighting your battles! You talk tough with nothing to back it up. Nori walked away from the chaos.

Are you okay, Toni broke Austin away from Caesar’s arms, snapping them out of their trance. I’m okay, Austin rubbed her hand up her cheek. I wasn’t talking to you heffa, and just that instance they four of the burst into laughter. Come on ladies, lets go in and finish brunch. Vaughn backed his car out like a mad man and clearly broke the speed limit leaving the complex.

He Can’t Be Serious (Part 11)

Wow, actually slept through the night. Austin slowly rolled over and realized today was the day. Graduation was in two days, she had been talking to her bestie for the past three weeks and had not really had to deal with Vaughn. Yeah he called and left some messages, texted her a couple of times, and even popped up at her job, but all of that has finally calmed down because she wasn’t feeding into this time. All of his normal is not working with her, she was totally fed of with his mess and sleeping with Toni’s sisters and getting Shyra pregnant, had done the trick, yeah I’m so good, she thought to herself. 

Okay Aussie, Charles Ravel is just your friend, don’t go looking to jump right into some mess when you still got crap swirling in your life. Austin knew her true feeling but, hey these are childhood emotions and you two are grown Austin reached on her nightstand to grab her phone. Her home boy was flying in today and she was a blazing ball of emotions. She had a few missed calls from a private number, DaVaughn no doubt, and two text messages from Charles “my flight is landing at 12:25pm, how long will it take you to get to the airport” and two minutes later another text that read “never mind I’ll come find you 😘”. Austin never thought to look at the time, she glanced up, OMG! Toni! Carrie! She called out for her sister mates and no one answered. It was almost one o’clock, what am I going to wear, my room is a mess, my hair is a mess, Lord I’m a whole entire complete mess. Toni, she scrabbled out of the bed, Carrie, grabbed her pj pants and slung her bedroom door open. Where the hell is everyone. She almost tumbled down the stairs. No one was there. What the!?!? She ran back up the stairs to grab her phone. She dialed Toni, Carrie never answers her phone. Whadup though? Toni giggled as she answered her phone. Where are you guys, he will be here any minute, why would you leave me here by myself? Aussie why are you yelling at me, I’m bout to bang on your behind, she giggled again. What’s so funny? You are freaking out like I’ve never seen before. I think you love him, I think you love him, oh girl you love him, Toni sang to her friend. Girl bye, Austin pushed the touch screen so hard she almost broke her nail. Such a freaking jerk, ugh. 

Just forget it, I’m getting in the shower. She grabbed her towel, face rag and rob, turned on some 90’s RnB and got into the steaming shower. Pretty brown, you know I see you, it’s a disguise the way treat meeee, keep holding on to your thoughts of rejectionssss…. I see that still your jam. She froze in mid song, her heart stopped, her eyes widened, she peeked out the shower curtain and there he stood. Ravel, she shrieked, how did you, where did you, boy get out. He chuckled and said your breakfast is waiting for you downstairs, so finish your song and let’s eat.

She waited until she heard the door snap shut and slide down the shower wall. He’s here, my Ravel is here. And my hair is getting wet, she jumped up and quickly exited the shower. She threw on a tank top and some yoga pants, brushed her hair into an Afro puff and went downstairs. So you guys are just letting random strangers come upstairs while I’m in the shower, she scowled at Toni and Carrie. Who Caesar? He ain’t no stranger, he’s been here for hours, we’ve gone grocery shopping, he cooked breakfast, I mean I think I love’em, Carrie giggled as she kissed Caesar on the cheek. Austin’s nostrils flared and everybody laughed as she tried to catch herself.

 He looked her up and down. My angel, my poetry in motion looking all grown he said as he glid across the floor. He was so smoothe and before she knew it she caught up in his arms and overwhelmed with his essence. Please don’t ever let me go, she begged him in her mind. He slowly loosened his embrace, kissed her nose and forehead and completely let her go. There was no way she could hide how much she was blushing. Eggs scrambled medium with spinach, bacon and coffee, that’s still your fav cooked breakfast, right? Those sexy lips slightly parted with a smile. 

Toni and Carrie are both mesmerized by him they forgot to lock the door and no one realized Vaughn and Nori was standing in the doorway. Who’s this corny dude, DaVaughn questioned. That’s not a question you want answered, Charles Ravel replied with no hesitation.  

He Can Be Serious (Part 10)

This has gone too far… Can I fix it? Of course I can I’m Vaughn. They all love me, I can have them all, I can handle them all. DaVaughn sat in his living room giving himself a major pep talk. Austin is ignoring his calls, Cameron just learned that he wanted to marry Austin, Shyra is… Shyra is young, dumb and gullible, yep she’s the one I’ll reign in first. He picked up the phone and it began to ring in his hand. Dude do you know that she knows? Do you know that they know? My sisters know!!!!! They know everything and I mean E-VER-Y-THING. And you were going to ask HER to marry you!?!? You no good bastard. I can’t believe you’re doing this to our family. How dare you, she cried out for an answer. Shy baby please listen to me, we can work it out. You and I can raise our child together. You can move in with me, have the baby here. My parents will be able to help you uruhmmm I mean us with the baby. You can be my number one Shy baby and we won’t have to hide us anymore , you know? First of all this is Raegan not Shyra and thought you said you wanted me not her. Raegan didnt give him a chance to answer, she just hung up. 

Nori dropped down on the couch and dropped his cell beside him. He reached for the remote and turned the tv on. It’s best that I just lay low and let them all come back to me, he thought to himself. Then a thought came to him, maybe I should actually try being faithful to one woman. He chuckled at what he thought was simply unnatural. He looked around his living room searching for…. Nothing. 

Both boys parent’s helped to furnish their place. They lived in a 3 bedroom loft, completey decked out with all the essentials of a bachelor’s pad. 64 Smart tv, several game consuls and surround sound system filled there blacked out living room area. Blacked out with leather couch, and two gamer recliners, tungsten metal coffee and end tables and black and white photos of all of their favorite movies. Vaughn laughed as he remembered how he and Nori picked out the movie theme to their apartment because I figured it would intrigue females they brought over.

 Damn, I have to call him. We’re family before all of this. He dialed Nori’s number ready to be sent straight to voicemail knowing his cousin is really non-confrontational, but he was wrong. What, the word stabbed through the phone. Damn brah, can we talk? We are better than this, I mean who are we without each other? DaVaughn was actually being sincere. He loved his cousin, Nori was always there  for him, when his parents got divorced, when he found out about he had a sister his age, when he almost slept with his sister because he didn’t know who she was, Vaughn snapped out of it. I need you brah, please you’re all I got! I’m not asking you to forgive me for all the crap I said, I just need my brother and best friend right now. I swear cuzzo I really want to punch you in your mouth, Nori said with a slight grin on his face. Look we need to talk but not at the house, meet me at the Cigar Bar. DaVaughn agreed to the meeting spot. 

He can’t be serious (Part 9)

Nori walked in the house to see his friend… his cousin… his blood on the couch with his twin’s mother. Nori looked at the two of them cuddled up on the couch and couldn’t hold his tongue.  Man I should punch you in your face. You have that girl over there sobbing, hurting and destroyed and you’re here with her, without a care in the world. You are straight dead dog wrong man.  DaVaughn stood as his cousin charged in his direction. He assumed it was about to be a fight but instead  Nori stormed through the hall way grabbed some stuff, his car keys and began to leave.

These two have known one another since as far as they could remember.  DaVaughn’s mom and Nori’s dad are twins. They have been as close as their parents, more like brothers than first cousins. They’ve never lived more than 10 blocks apart. They’ve attended school together since pre school.  They are only 7 weeks apart. Two boys born and raised in the suburb of Dunwoody,  Ga. Both parents are psychologists who graduated from Clark. However,  they are far from the same. Nori was raised solely by his dad because his mom left weeks after he was born and never returned.  Nori’s father instilled in him how to be a man and how to treat a woman, maybe because of the way Nori’s mom left he wanted to assure that his son never had to suffer that kind of pain again. Nori, a caramelized mocha complexed gentleman,  very quiet and peaceful. He had a stifling kind of character yet he lived in the shadow of his cousin DaVaughn.  DaVaughn who was raised by both parents, but saw his father play around on his mother and his mom just kind of making excuses for it. Oh Vaughn,  your dad loves us he’s just doing what men are supposed to do.
Nori, Vaughn called with a sinister smile on his face. You will never be me so you will never understand.  And I will never want to understand either Nori snapped! I’m moving dude. You can have this spot to yourself you and all your hoes. You know it’s stuff out here that you can’t get rid of, right? DaVaughn just continued to laugh at his cousin without a care in the world. But this time Nori refused to be cut down by his cousin brother.

Cameron did you know that your loving baby’s daddy planned on proposing to Austin at graduation? Did you know he’s sleeping with her roommate’s sisters?  Yep, that’s sisters  with an S because it’s two of them! Oh and by the way your twin’s are about to have  a sibling or siblings  because clearly this dude is all about  plural and Shyra is 7 weeks pregnant and refuses to abort her child.

The light in DaVaughn’s eyes faded as the blaze in Cameron’s burned like a growing brush fire. Wow that’s what your doing cuz, we’re family and your snitching? I should. What? What are you going to do or think you’re going to do, because today will be the last that you chew on your own if you try it, Nori said beyond heated. Today I’m done being your sidekick, alibi, and or fall guy. We’re not friends my dude we’re not even family. Nori stood in  the middle of their bachelor’s pad while his cousin and the mother of his twin girls Darie  and Camie headed for the door. Cameron turned before exiting the apartment and softly whispered with a broken heart you reap what you sow.

They Don’t Miss A Good Thing Til It’s Gone…. Really?

We have all had our heart broken a time or two or seventeen right? So I’m sure someone has told you “they don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone”. But my question to that is why? Why must I be gone to be appreciated? Why does it take to break me down to see the good in me? Why is it when I move on and have given all my love to someone else you thirst so much for me? Well I am here to break it down so that it can forever and always be broke.

I going to have to take you on a journey from a broken heart to a mended heart for some ground work. There was once a good guy, trying to be great. But along the way he made some serious mistakes. And Instead of allowing those mistakes to make him he choose to allow them to grow him. While making these mistakes he met a young lady who instead of growing with him she choose to attempt to stunt his growth because of his mistakes. So after years of fighting against one another he couldn’t take anymore and he left. With his broken heart shattered like glass in his hands he walked away and to begin to heal.
Now he is growing into a great man and and his heart is mending and he’s ready to place his fragile heart in the hands of another woman.

We all knows the next few steps. If you are honest… Let me repeat IF YOU ARE HONEST… You don’t just tell what they did you also tell what you did. You express that you are serious about wanting to find love and you have grown from the mistakes you’ve made. Then that person makes the choice to attempt to grow with you and sooner or later you two are a couple.

Here’s where it gets interesting… Somehow some way that ex that choose not to forgive, that choose not to see the love in your heart, that choose not to be ready to be ready for what you wanted finds out that you’re trying love again. So you get a call, a text, or maybe even a inbox on Facebook like “Hey… Ummm I haven’t heard from you in a while and just wanted to say hello” (Look at my face 😏).

We all know what that means they know your happy. They know someone is getting at the least what you used to give them if not more. There is a girl cooking for you, adoring you, allowing you to be that great man that you wanted to be. There is a guy that is giving you all of the attention that you desire, who is busy making moves to be great but NEVER too busy for you. Somebody they know saw you holding hands with your new love and you had the nerve to look happy! Who do you think you are.

Now it hits them… That thing… That imaginary thing… That silly thing… That thing that they never told you they wanted and/or needed was in you all along. But wait…. You’re giving it to someone else. Now they are ready to have you all to themselves. They don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone.

They are reaching out to you more and more. They tell you look I know I hurt you. I know I said that I couldn’t forgive you. I know I said I wasn’t ready but I just didn’t know. And I wish that I knew then what I know now. They don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone.

They want you to understand that in real life it wasn’t you it was them. They have been going through it since you left. In their hearts they know that don’t NOBODY do it like you. They don’t miss a good thing til it’s gone.

Most people as I said before are sitting there thinking WHY. Well let me tell you why. They’re selfish, arrogant and completely full of themselves. They don’t want you, they simply don’t want someone else to have you. To them they are thinking in their minds I made him the man he is. I taught her how to love. They never did that with me. So now that they are on the outside holding the hand of misery and they want you to come and join the pity party. So go ahead and be the fool and go back if you want you. And you will see they never missed the good thing that was gone the simply wanted to prove you were never good from the begin!